i dont think ive matured any more in my life than i have in the past 2 weeks. i realized that everything happens for a reason and a negative can be turned into a positive. i have a new outlook on life and am re-inventing myself in everyway possible. i dont know where all these new ideas are going to take me but i know i have amazing friends and family to take me whereever i need to go in life. whether that be new york, paris, italy, or just to colledge, i know i have everyone behind me. but of course there is that one thorn in my side…..school… my grades are in the toilett and there so bad i couldnt even try out for softball after school today, well i mean i spent all day in the hospital getting my tonsils treated so i couldnt have gone anyway, but besides the fact, i dont think i can do this on my own.i need help in everything and i just wish school didnt exsist. and one thing that bothers me soooo much is that my strong points are lit and world civ and people dont think your smart unless your good at science and math. its one of the biggest misconceptions known to man. you dont have to know how to solve an algebra problem if your a writer for a fashion magazine?? yes basic math applies in everything, but my opinion is that we should only have to take the classes that will benefit our future carreerss. but the thing is, i go to an all girls private catholic school in a colledge town. i dont go to public school so taking an elective just to benefit our lives in the long rung WONT happen. my dumb highschool requires all these classes that wont even benefit us in our lives… i just want to be 30 but right now, im pulling a jennifer garner and stuck in my own version of 13 going on 30, except im 15 and dont have monkey ears.